LITTLE ROCK, Ark. (KTHV) - Seeking recovery from addiction is no easy feat.
For some, it can take multiple attempts.
It's an uphill battle for those who are struggling and sometimes loving someone with an addiction can weigh heavier than any other challenge you've faced in your life.
A few years ago the relationship between 31-year-old Mallory Goff and her mother, Terri Isaac was strained, almost broken beyond repair.
"I almost killed them you know. The stress the anxiety and the worry, it makes me sick," said Mallory Goff.
Goff struggled with drugs since she was a teenager.
After she married and had her children, her addiction only got worse.
"I ran from the people who mattered. My family, my kids. It was the guilt and shame that kept me going through my addiction," said Goff.
Goff ended up losing her children and went to jail numerous times. She even resorted to stealing from her mother to buy drugs.
"Looking back it crushes me because I have healed through that, but at the time it was nothing. It was like I was entitled. I'm her daughter. If it's her's, it's mine," said Goff.
"We got to know all the different rehabilitation facilities across the state. We gave her chance after chance after chance and tried to get her the help she needed," said Terri Issac. "It's like we are giving up hope here. When is she ever going to get it together? Or the fear that she wouldn't."
"A lot of it is rooted in fear. The fear is what happens if my child dies from this," said Dori Haddock, Regional Director of Bradford Health Services.
Dori Haddock is the Regional Director of Bradford Health Services.
She said the first step in helping a loved one face their addiction is to acknowledge there is a problem
"There is a lot of shame and guilt in admitting that there is a problem. A lot of times the family or loved one is aware of the issue before the patient is," said Haddock.
She also recommends seeking help for yourself before you help your loved one.
"Going to ALANON, getting into support groups, getting into things that help them understand that this is not their fault. This is not something they can cure and that it's up to them to give them the resources to do it," said Haddock. "You can love someone by making them accountable and you can love somebody the most by saying I will walk you through this treatment process but we are not going to sit back and watch you kill yourself."
It is that tough love that Goff said just may have saved her life.
"I think it was hard for her to set those boundaries, but she had to do it. We have a great relationship now," said Goff.
Over the course of four years, Goff went to five different rehab programs across the state of Arkansas.
Now she works at one of the programs she went to while in jail, the Exodus Project.
She has her kids back and will celebrate 3 years of sobriety in August.